Friday, January 02, 2004
first day of school today...
N I M AT HOME!!! (not happy at all.......)
voiceless.
breathless.
tired.
splittin headache.
ulcerssssss which affected my speech.
feverish ( a lil... i hope i m not the 2nd sars case in spore)
i rather not feel this way n b in school now...
meetin my new class... ( which is like SMALLER !!)
handin in work which i HAVE NOT COMPLETED!!
since i m free now... i m goin to set some new year resolutions for 2004.
1) study very very hard!! i have to promote successfully by CA1.
2) no steppin into town unneccessary!
3) take very good care of my frenz. DUN let them get hurt by BASTARDS!!!!!
4) i have to learn how to save. cant b a spendthrift anymore.
5) take VERY good care of my dad when he is back.
6) DUN make my family worry for me anymore.
7) learn to b INDEPENDENT!
8) try to please 3/4 of my world ( not a lot rite?)
9) 2-3 hrs of studyin everyday durin weekdays. 5-6 hrs durin weekends. (thanx criz)
10) train hard for v ball!!
ok! these r 10 things dat i gonna fulfil by the end of 2004...
anyone who sees me breakin the rules... pls feel free to come n gimme a tight slap!!
most importantly, yan!! u gonna learn to let go!!
i did not put it in one of my 10 resolutions coz i know that i may not fulfil it.
over is over!!
new yan in 2004!!
new challenges as well...
hopefully i can take them...
deal with them maturely.....
happy new yr my frenz!!! =)
intoxicated* ||| 1:48:00 PM
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
its the last day of the yr today... suppose to b excited, lookin forward to the parties awaitin for me to enjoy... but all these feelins somehow seemed lost... suddenly got no mood for everything... mayb coz i m sick n the stuffs happenin at home??
its time to make some new yr resolutions i guess?? mayb i have said these before... but after so many things happened this yr... i juz HAVE to grow... i dun have a choice... from now onwards.. i have to make wise choices... not to let anyone down again... at the same time... no one can make me sad again...
really fortunate of me... that i have a grp of very caring frenz beside me all the time... no matter where they r.. glad they really care for me... no matter wat haooen... i juz know that i m not in this all alone... how lucky can i get?? so it was really stupid of me to like give up everything at this pt of time... juz coz of 1 problem... i nearly had to sacrifice everything....
as mentioned earlier.. i started off this yr really well... but it ended off really bad... so does it mean i will have a better yr next yr?? can i pls have?? i really need it.... coz next yr gonna b a really crucial yr for me... everything HAVE to b rite!! again, i got NO CHOICE!
my worst yr!! 2003!! neva been so bad before all my 16 yrs on earth... problems emergin one after another.... mayb i should juz admit i cant take it anymore... BUT i have to b strong.... learn so many million things this yr... i learn how to play hard!! learn how to care for ppl.. learn how to hurt ppl... learn how to study stupidly and most importantly i learn how to love... these r the things that i had neva done b4 in my past 16 yrs of life... so meaningful indeed....
haha... to all my frenz out there... pls study hard k... a levels next yr already.. pls dun play already... time to settle down... for those not takin their As... pls lead a very fruitful life ahead... coz theres more out there that we had not seen.... thanx for eveything... also for those whom i have offended for the past months... so sorry.. if sorry is not a solution... den i hope we can juz begin everything anew... coz i rem something yunx told me b4... theres nothing on earth thats so big which i cant solved...
last but not least.. a very happy new yr to all... love ya babes!!
intoxicated* ||| 4:47:00 PM
Monday, December 29, 2003
damn it!! felt bloody hell fucked up!! =P
provoked the hell outa of the whole world!! wat the fuck m i doin?? can someone pls slap me??
quarreled with my sis in the can juz now... den.. i got off the cab halfway n left... dun even know where the fuck m i in... juz kept walkin until i see familiar stuffs... first time i actually did this...
seriously.. did i change??
i dun wna carry on these anymore.. i wasn t offendin ppl on purpose... neither m i that happy... pls leave me alone....
intoxicated* ||| 12:29:00 AM
Sunday, December 28, 2003
hooray!! YUNX IS STAYIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant believe it!!! i WONT feel lonely anymore next yr!!!she juz called me to tell me the news... i was the first person she called.. (so touched!! tsk tsk ) hahaha.. *happy happy*
yup.. stayed at home today n rot... neva do my hw!! (even though i plan to) wth!! borin day came to an end when yunx called me to break the good news.... the thought of goin back to school does not make me sick anymore....
packed my room when i saw stuffs which reminded me of the past.... cant deny the fact that i have not gotten over it.... no doubt... i juz have to take it.... talk to yunx juz now.. she told me all bout her "stories" i have the same feelins sometimes as well.. like ver?? those who know me well enough....
guess i have to start my work soon.. doin my work combinin our powers with yunx n kaix.... enjoy ur hols while u can k?? happy hols to all!!
intoxicated* ||| 12:08:00 AM
