Monday, November 03, 2003

felt fuckin lousy n prob loose now.. haha.. wat a way to feel... but it is really seriously how i m feelin now... wonder if my dearest nicest mummy on earth gave birth to me to make people around me unhappy or wat... wonder wat i can do so that the whole fuckin whole is happy with me... i really wan people around me to b happy be it whether they r good to me or not.. not being pretentious here but i will b happy when people around me wears a smile on their face.. its juz like.. so nice... but no.. the real world is not so sweet after all.. many many many things juz happen... i juz make people unhappy, sad, angry....

wat the hell m i doin?? can someone pls fuckin lemme know... i really dun mean anything i say or do... mayb i have done things which have hurt people around me who care for me.. but juz to let u all know.. I REALLY DUN MEAN IT!! I LOVE ALL OF U AS MUCH AS I LOVE MYSELF!!! (i swear!) hahahaha... but the whole world does not seems to believe me... whatever... first i cant make myself happy.. now i cant make ppl happy.. wats the fuckin prob with yanz??? she changed?? i dunno... i really seriously got no idea... y cant i b like last time???

however.. no matter how bad things go.. i really still have a group of dearies around me who r always 24/7 beside me.... for example my malc dear ( I really love u k!!) my purple gang members yunx lala n celeste ( celeste is our new member, but she is not takin over me!! ) hahahahaha.. n not forgettin my bachelorette caroline lah!! For bearin with my nonsense when I m NOT MYSELF!! ( not drunk k xueting!!) yup.. take care dearies!! Promise me that u all will neva leave me like wat others did k??

intoxicated* ||| 4:24:00 PM

Sunday, November 02, 2003

so long ago since i last blog... no mood for bloggin lah... anyway.. happy 18 birthday Celeste!! hahaha... i enjoyed myself last nite man!! dunno y.. neva drink much but got a little out when i was bout to go home... hahaha.. poor caroline.. had to listen to all yunx n my rubbish on the cab... hahahaha

went to do pw today... was quite bored.. haiz.. went out with him in the afternoon... enjoyed myself... was happy that he is finally ok... thanx caroline.. i really love u!! u neva fail to keep me safe.. i miss my purple gang!!! see ya soon k???

intoxicated* ||| 1:04:00 AM

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